Botchai's Corner: Thank You, Mama

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"No gift to your mother can ever equal her gift to you - your life" - Anonymous

In honor of my wonderful mother, I would like to dedicate this one post to her. This will be the 5th year that I will not be celebrating mother's day at home. I would only greet her over the phone and send some gifts if I can. When I was young, I would make it a point to make my own greeting card for my mom and write her my personal message. I guess as time goes by, I would just by her stuff and just make it personal by wrapping it myself. I find it difficult to think of a perfect gift for her, but whatever we give her it always put a smile on her face.

But looking back, no amount of gift can make my mother's heart soar with joy unless we live our lives worth of her pride. She may not be the kind of mother who would sit with us and ask us about how our day went, but I know in her own way she wanted us to have the perfect day. We might not have the perfect mother and daughter relationship but I can never imagine to have someone else as my mother.

And she is one of my "why"s in my life right now. I know I have wasted the last five years of my life not being by her side and not physically showing how much I appreciate her and everything that she has done for me and my siblings. I would want her to see her first grandchild from me and enjoy every waking moment of being a grandmother. I know in my heart if ever I will have the biggest regret in my life, that would be not spending everyday of my life showing my mother how much I love her.

And for nth time, I would like to say sorry to her for all the pain and heartaches that I caused her. I never wanted to see her hurt again because of my wrongdoings and immaturity. I wanted her to be proud of me. I want to give her the most comfortable life and let her enjoy the rest of her life with us, her family.

Thank you mama for being the best mom in the whole world! I love you. And I will see you soon.